u fucking ruined my whole childhood and I though I would never forgive you for that. but the older I get, the more I understand why were you like that. I still remember the nights to DETAILS that you were threatening to kill me, and the first panic attack I had cause I was so scared, but you were always too drunk to remember it the next day. I should not forgive you for that, but you are the reason I became so empathetic. even though you ruined my whole life, you still reached me a lot more than my mom, and u were just my dads girlfriend. I think about you everyday hoping that you stopped drinking, but also that my sister will NOT end up like you. if you want to know, she looks exactly like you, and I feel like looking at your face every fucking day.