yes friggin depression ate me
i dont want that u care about it. i know you’re empathetic and kind. but please don’t worry about it. then why i write it? for what? have no idea. because u stuck in my head. if u didnt put a spell on me then wtf you dont leave my mind…. yes, im angry because of everything, but why you can’t just say me “fuck you. leave me alone”!? probably it works and i forget you…
no i think its impossible, so much time went… its not your fault that im into you. fuck its so stupid what happened. and for what this polite well-thinking about each other and good memories. fuck it. it destroys me. but sometimes it the one thing what make me feel better. and yes i write it, but i dont want that you actually read it because its strange. im psycho. i know that its weird but im like this. bpd controls me. im working about it. but dont wish you a person like me
yes, probably my letter is a bit rude and chaotic. but i think better splash my anger to nowhere than in your face…
hate-love… u probably confused, what actually i feel to you (love ofc… my heart belongs to you. or its my loyalty to image of you.. honestly dont fucking care. i accept everything about you. just in the moment when im writting feel angry, yes maybe its not the best time for letter…idc)
ANYWAY point of my mind to you is: live your life (i believe you do it without my advices) im always on your side if you need it
be happy thats everything what i want
i even cant ask you for more
i dont have right for it