I don’t know how to tell you. I just feel like I have deteriorated so much since I’ve been in college. Maybe this is the normal college student struggles mixed with my existing mental health issues, but I’m getting to a point where I feel like I can’t function at all anymore. I know I’m just being weak and that I truly need to work harder, but I feel like I can’t even though I KNOW I can. I’m so tired. I think about my future every day. I worry about you both dying. I am scared to grow up. Maybe this is just a mood I’m feeling right now though… it doesn’t dismiss the fact that each time I get this way it feels worse than the last. Momma, I don’t know how to make you proud. Daddy, I don’t know if I can live up to my fullest potential. I just want it all to stop. I need this to stop. I want help, I need help, I crave help. I can’t tell you though, because I’m scared you’ll become overprotective of me like last time (rightfully so, it just makes me feel subhuman) and that you’ll force me to go to the looney bin again. All I want is a break. A long, long break. I want you to help me with my laundry, I want you to help me clean my room and my dorm, I want you to just let me be, I want to quit college, I want to graduate, I just can’t do this. Help me. I’m stuck and I’m lost. I don’t want advice, I just want support. I wish I could burn down society sometimes.