I hope I can be myself without giving you up. it hasn’t been easy, and it sure won’t be. but you are a part of me, a part of my girlhood. and we both know I want to be free from those limits, those binaries that are projected onto us. onto me. I’ll always hold you in my heart. im not giving up femininity. even if im not a girl anymore. I wonder if I ever was. if you ever were. I wish things could be simpler. maybe one day people with call me and you by a different name. I’ve always liked the name Conan. although that is a singer, I liked it before I ever listened to him. am I rejecting you? I don’t want to. but I also wish people didn’t perceive me the way they perceive you. I wish we were separate beings. but this is what I was born into. you were always beautiful. I love you. we were always the same, weren’t we?