I never had anyone else…. I have never even had a bf before. Maybe one day, we will see each other again. I thought I loved you… I have never felt this way for any other guy I have ever met. But I know now that I have always been nothing to you. You never told me you wanted me to be your gf. You never told me you liked me or loved me. You just sent me songs and always ended up with another girl. Every time I tried to apologize to you or wanted to know if you had feelings for me, you told me I was crazy and we were just friends. When I said I wanted to be friends with you over messenger, I said that because I thought we weren’t even friends because of how mean and upset you were towards me. I thought, “if we aren’t even friends, how could we even be together?” I did not know you were sending me songs in hs, I had no idea. I just wished you told me once that you liked me so much so that like me with you, whenever I was in the room you couldn’t breathe. Did you know that? In hs, I couldn’t even breathe when I was around you because I liked you so much. I would always look for you in every room. I always wanted it to be you and me since we were kids. Why didn’t you ever call me or text me? I guess I was nothing to you. But you were everything to me. My favorite song you ever sent me was Daniel Caesar- always because I felt the same way back then. You always said you needed glasses to see me right. The truth is there was a huge misunderstanding when I sent that song…. I tried to tell you, but you said,”Stop dragging this weird narrative.” I felt like I could never talk to you… all I ever wanted was to just hear your voice on the other end of the phone, not all those songs. What was the point of even sending me all of those songs for all of those years, if you can’t tell me you love me and we can’t be together? Was it a game to you? Because you may not believe it because of all of the misunderstanding between us… but you were never once a game to me. I wanted to be yours more than anything. I wanted to know what it felt like to hold your hand and to know everything you liked. I wanted to be your girlfriend…. I even truly wanted forever with you.