i really wish its me, i love you. thats something ive never told you before but i wholeheartedly mean it, i never told anyone that before. i wish i wasnt so terrible in the beginning towards you but that probably wouldnt have changed anything. you send a lot of mixed signals and i wish i could read you clearly. i hate that sometimes im nothing to to you, but i really wish you choose me if you havent. you hurt me a lot but i hurt you first. ill never blame you, ever. were both young and i understand, but i really really wish its me of all people. i wish you felt the same way or atleast showed it. i love waking up next to you and i love everything about YOU. not just the way you look but YOU. i tried to come up with why its always going to be you at the end of the day and came up with absolutely nothing, all i knew was that i choose you at the start to the end of the day. no matter how long we go without talking we always come back to each other like its nothing. no matter how much times we both did wrong we always find our way back. if the invisible string theory is truly real, i pray you are at the end of mine. i love you big time jay.