breaking up with me is the best thing you ever did. i was sick gray, and i’m sorry for how i treated you. we hurt each other. you hurt me. i will never truly forgive you for the way you treated me, but we both know i won’t hate you either.

you changed from the kind, goodhearted boy that i met at tennis. you are not the same person and that is not a good thing. everyone else saw it, and thats why the only people you are friends with are people just like you. i hope you finally take accountability some day.
and please, stop lying. about everything.

you were my first love. do not think for even a second i didn’t love you. and i will never stop caring about you. but i am different now and i will never let myself go through what you put me through again.
that being said, you will always have an emergency contact in me. even if you never unblock me, even if you couldn’t be there for me when i needed it most, just know that i would still be there for you. -a