i hate to give the satisfaction of letting you know i care, but i do care. just not about you. i care about my new boyfriend and you calling him TWICE off of TWO DIFFERENT NUMBERS to tell him i’ll just use and play him screamsssssss pathetic, desperate, and that you know exactly what you did and you just dont want people to know. deep down you know your a monster too. not the ones with claws and big red eyes but the ones that come in the form of an insecure little boy with a fragile ego. hell, i wasn’t the best girlfriend. not even close but i actually TRIED and i loved you. you lusted me. and you blame it on me and say it’s my fault for going to someone who would actually change when you wouldnt because all the drgs n alc were clouding your thought process. your own bestfriend, actually MULTIPLE of your friends apologized for YOUR actions when you didnt. if i told anyone what actually happened, you’d be sitting, rotting in hell. i gave you the benefit of the doubt only for you to throw it away for what? a few minutes of feeling euphoric? i hate you. you almost took away my future because you convinced me i didnt deserve to live?! i was a KID. and i finally found someone who has convinced me i have a reason and purpose, who gave me a reason to stay and look forward to the future and you try to ruin it? the one thing i love about myself is i will NEVER be like you benjamin js.