I know you’ll never see this, but I wanted to let you know that i’m really sorry. Im sorry for letting you down so many times. I didn’t notice how much I really cared about you. And I was so selfish to let you go like that. you’r the only person I ever really cared about, and I wish I didn’t let you go. I dont deserve you at all. and I never did. You dont even care about me and I cry every time I see you. Your so close to me yet so so far away. All I want to do when I see you is go back to how we used to be. But I know you don’t want us to be anything more than what we are. Nothing. And I hate it so much. I love you. i’m sorry I never told you that before but I really love you. I don’t regret a thing. I know we will never talk again but I miss you so much. I wish you were here. I miss knowing I had someone as special as you. and to be honest I only did those things because I never wanted to lose you. But I did. and I hate myself for it. I blame myself for losing the only person who cared.