I wish you could’ve been there for me, I wish I would’ve had a real dad one who protected and made me feel seen and heard for who I am. But sadly the truth is you have corrupted me with trauma so bad that it now ruins my relationships, I try and try so hard to be better but somehow I am always left begging them for an ounce of their attention hoping they’ll see the girl you never did. I’m abt to turn 16 now I know you know but I just want you to know I’m becoming more than the little girl who used to cry alone in her room all the time hoping you’d call, or hoping the yelling and slamming of things would finally stop between you and Momma Tyyah. You brought me into a world where I constantly had to sacrifice my needs for someone else’s even when I needed more and I pray one day the lord will show you who you really are. Know my words I write are not words of hate but disappointment in you and the person you became, and I’m sorry you went through so much in your childhood but you should want better for me and you should want to be better for me. But at last I love you dad and I hope God reveals your doings to you. -Love and truth ,Ayana Brenae Norton.