It’s been almost half a year now since we have last spoken. Honestly it feels insane to me that so much time has already passed. I still think about you every single day and i still miss you every single day. I’m trying my hardest to move on so you can be the best version of yourself and so can i. My love for you goes beyond than just all the words i said about how pretty you looked or how bad i wanted you to last or how i always tried to text first. My love for you goes beyond than all the money i spent on you for flowers just so you knew somebody cared about you and your feelings. My love for you goes beyond all the times we weren’t always the happiest with each other.I know i wasn’t perfect and i made some pretty bad mistakes and I’ll be the first one to admit i was wrong at those times. I want to apologize with my entire soul for those mistakes. i didn’t always get some things you had going on and the emotions you felt. I grew up differently than you. I wish that kind of thing didn’t make me so uncomfortable at the time and i could have understood the emotion you felt. My life has felt like it’s been missing its drive since you left. You were there the night my brother was first in the hospital. I’m sure you remember that night as well as i do. I fought back tears. You told me it was okay to cry. so why didn’t i? I didn’t so i could prove to you i could be strong in front of you so you could see that even in my worst moments you’d still have a shoulder to rest your head on and i could provide for you emotionally.But now it seems that is useless. I’ve seen you’ve been out with other guys. I hope they are treating you the way you wish. I’m not going to lie there have been times in these past 6 months i was so heartbroken to the point i wished bad upon you. But as i leaned more into the acceptance stage of my grief, i’ve learned that true love is more than just showing effort, hanging out with each other as much as possible, being lovey dovey with each other and all that Romeo and Juliet crap. True love is wanting to the absolute best in the other person even if it means it’s not with you by their side. i highly doubt this letter will ever find you but if your reading this. I still love you. I think about you and i miss you every single day. I wish things could have ended differently or it could have been salvaged but, Thank you. Thank you for the year full of memories that will be written on my heart even until the day i am in Heaven with our Father. Even if it was just a high school relationship, It certainly taught me the beauty of the concept of love and how deep it truly is and am thankful for that. I’m going to take the things i did wrong and the things i did right in this relationship and whenever the right one comes, You are to thank for some of the things i’ve learned.

This is my last goodbye to you. God bless you, Wherever you are.
Thank You For Everything.