Charles i’m so sorry. i wish I could take back what I said that probably made you feel like a burden. I was immature and scared of intimacy but i genuinely loved you. I was just insecure and afraid of my feelings. Since you left me without an explanation my life has been miserable. I think about you everyday and I miss you so much. I often dream that you’re still here with me. It’s been 3 years now and I still can’t forget you, even though a part of me wish i did. I tried really hard to see other people but nothing compares to what you made me feel. I put the color blue because it’s the color of your eyes. Can we just talk this out ? I just want to see you again.