i’ll love you from the distance, in the middle of the night

you thought I hated you but no way. I gained a ton from your unspoken love. I appreciate you forever.

It was never what I needed back from you, other than not to completely reject the connection. I know we have it…

Not just are you the first person in my life to see the real me and still love me, but I saw and love you too.

Anything I don’t know? You really think I don’t still accept it? I do… so genuinely.

I never meant to overwhelm you. I have successfully distracted myself best when I’m learning about your attachment style and my own insecurities.

I’m not perfect. But the love i feel for you really is permanent and deep. Even if that meant I never see or directly contact you again.

You live within me, forever.

Goodbye my sweet girl. I really am sorry that the blow up occurred. Clean slate is here if ever you want to try to talk. I prefer the distance myself, while I navigate my life for the first time feeling truly WHOLE and complete.

C + J