and after everything i still miss you so fricking much . i hate myself for even wanting you back . i never told you what i was gonna wish for once i reached 1000 airplanes . cs i didnt have a wish at the time i thought i still had alot of airplanes left till i had to think of a wish now i only have 77 airplanes left and i know my wish. i really hope it comes true . i miss when you called me mama . and when you hugged me so tight i felt like i couldnt breathe . i miss you carter but i know you dont miss me . -luuuu