there is so much i wish i could tell you but i dont know how. like how much i miss you, but would never allow myself to feel the pain you gave me again. the rose colored glasses you gave me made the blood invisible. i hate that you lied to me for that long about something we couldve otherwise sorted out. but i still love you. im not angry anymore. not in the slightest. but i am so disappointed. what happened to my sweet boy? i will forever mourn the loss of who you were before alcohol and the wrong group. i love you forever and always even tho i wish i didnt bjs. take care of t for me mr.