i’ve always had a crush on you ever since we met. we would always laugh and joke about boys, you would date men back and forth like crazy. i always was there by your side to defend you in every way possible. a couple months back, you came out as lesbian. i was surprised since you’ve been dating men for years but i had a chance. i was far too afraid to even confess my feelings for you, i didn’t want to embarrass myself in front of your friends. you are popular after all, i’m not. when i asked you again you denied it and just laughed, you said again you were straight and you weren’t serious about being lesbian. i was glad i didn’t confess but my love for you still stays the same. we still talk, i’m glad we do. each time i see that smile of yours it brings me joy, i don’t think you’ve noticed i wouldn’t want you to anyway, i always catch you staring at me with that stupid look on your face like your about to crack a corny joke like you always do, you always made jokes about us being together. i always denied them and laughed with you, i never told you how i felt. i’m glad we’re still friends you mean so much to me, platonically and romantically but of course i won’t let you know that. i thought it was funny, you would always tell me the most stupidest things and i always found that hilarious.