You hated when i called you Alfred but i always loved your name anyway and defended it when anyone said differently. i miss you endlessly every single day and unfortunately for me, no one could ever replace what we had. it’s miserable and i miss you so much. we will never ever have what we had again but it feels so good to just sit and imagine what it would be like and i can’t count on my fingers and toes how many times i’ve dreamed of everything that we could’ve had. it’s been over a year since we’ve talked, yet every conversation replays in my head everyday. what i could’ve said differently and maybe you wouldn’t have left or how i could’ve hugged you longer and maybe you wouldn’t have cheated. but it’s all for nothing now and i love you so much. no matter who you’ve changed into, who else you’ve liked, how much more you smoke or how much you’ve probably dragged my name through the mud. i know you won’t see it because you’d never check this but i love you. i pinky promise to infinity and beyond. – your dairy queen, penny🥜