Sometimes I wish I could go back to that night where we were in your room and we drank tea and ate animal crackers and watched redeeming love. I felt so loved and so seen. I learned what love felt like that night. I wish I could go back to that walk in the woods that night when I was able to cling onto without a worry in the world. I wish we could go back to behind the house with the broken glass where you led me through in the dark. I wish we could go back to the moment where I felt. Back to that very tearful night where i finally learned the meaning of what true love was. That feeling of being so close with someone where it feels like the world melts. I wish I could have been there to see you graduate or there to see you sell your car or there when you bought another. I wish I was there on your birthday to celebrate it with you. But that’s not possible. I miss the long conversations we had. I miss the times where it felt like there was no time at all. I miss you Aiden. I’m almost moved on I just needed you to know how I feel. I work two jobs now and both are with coffee. I’m saving up to get a car and move out. Remember when we promised that when I turned 18 we would move in together? I know it’s not going to happen but sometimes I wonder if you still think about that. I wonder if you even stills think about me. I’m sorry and I hope you fulfill your dreams someday soon. -you know who it is 🙂